So the call began... *UPDATED*

Susan (the nurse): "LIW, How are you?"

Me: "Nervous"

Susan: "Well, I am SO happy to be calling you today."

In a nutshell, there will be no Spamalot this weekend.

And the HCG = 240.

Susan was nearly giddy about the number. I was told that they hope for 150.

Either there are twins in there, it's a healthy singleton pregnancy, or both.

Today, I am choosing not to worry about all that could still go wrong. I will return on Monday for another beta, and then again on Thursday.

I didn't ask when the u/s would be. I don't want to think about that yet.

Susan told me that cramping is normal (which I am experiencing a lot today.) I explained that I was worried all my symptoms were from the progesterone and we laughed together.

Of course, I was sobbing like a baby at that point. And I was shaking uncontrollably, though that has been part of my life lately. That flu I felt was coming on? I guessin that's Fira and/or Thira doing their thang.

I need to thank each and every one of you for giving me the love and strength to survive the craziness that is ivf.....

XOXOXOXO

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Holy Shit. I have so much work to finish up. Man, it is hard to concentrate!

But I wanted to make sure that I add a couple of things.

1) I am not blind to the fact that this news will cause many of you great pain. I spoke to my best friend, who spent 7 years in the trenches and ended up with a divorce and no children, who is having a very hard time with it. She feels badly but I *understand*. I do. I understand 100% if you can't be supportive. And, if you go away, I hope you will return one day when you find yourself in a better place.

and

2) I am so so so so so so very grateful to have gotten this far. I realize how far we have to go - and I know it is going to be a long journey - but getting this far is an achievement. And my goal is to celebrate it as much as I can. If this pregnancy fails, I want to make sure that I appreciated it every step of the way and as much as I humanly could.....

Holy shit. Fira and/or Thira decided to stick around. I hope they plan to stay until October of 2008.......