I'm Panicking....Anyone have any advice?

So, today I didn't feel "right." As in, by the afternoon, my belly felt smaller and I simply didn't feel pregnant anymore. Sure, I felt tired like I have so many times but something just felt wrong.

And then this evening I remembered last night. I woke up to go to the bathroom and my pjs were incredibly wet. There was no blood so I breathed easier and thought that maybe I had gotten really sweaty there. Even though I didn't feel hot anywhere else. I went back to bed and ultimately back to sleep. At the time, I didn't worry.

But tonight I decided to do a little research about miscarriage signs past the first 12 weeks. And, you guessed it, a gush of fluid is one of the signs listed.

In tears, I called the on-call nurse through my OB's practice and she told me that miscarriages at my point in the pregnancy are unlikely to involve large gushes of fluid. Though Little Life is swimming in amniotic fluid, there's not really much at this point. But she put a call into the OB on duty.

The OB called me back and told me to call my OB's office in the morning. She said that they rarely see miscarriages with signs like that one at this point in a pregnancy. But to get an ultrasound to at least "put my mind at ease."

I tried - in vain - to describe to both the nurse and the OB how I felt "different" - like something wasn't right. The nurse told me that it is common to feel this way at this point in the pregnancy - when most of the symptoms are gone and the baby's movements are not yet felt.

But I am simply not comforted. The OB told me that the best idea would have been to call my OB this morning. But I have been trying not to panic and, honestly, I have myself so trained to NOT freak out over anything less than blood.

When I asked if I should go to the Emergency Room, she assured me that it can wait until tomorrow. That I should only go to the ER if I am dying (what kind of comment is that?) That it is unlikely anything is wrong since I felt ok today. But when I remembered to tell her that I DID experience more cramping than usual yesterday, she told me to call my OB's office first thing and ask for an u/s. She told me that it will put my mind at ease. That they should check to make sure that there is enough amniotic fluid.

I am panicking. I am frustrated. I will call my OB's office in the morning BUT they only have access to low-budget u/s machines. I am not sure whether or not they will be able to get me in to one of the two locations that do diagnostic u/s.

Overall, I am SO FUCKING SCARED. And I can't seem to stop crying. I want Little Life to make it into a real, live, healthy baby in October. And to even consider that it's all over........

I know that our chances of miscarriage are very small. I know that Little Life had a nice, strong heartbeat last Tuesday in the NT scan. That everything looked great.

One question the OB that called me back tonight asked was whether or not I had a fever. I didn't know at the time but I just took my temperature and, though it is higher than normal for me, I don't think it is high for pregnancy. It was 98.something (high, though I can't remember exactly.) Non-pregnant, I am 97.8, so I would expect to be nearly two degrees higher while pregnant. Since the number was not even close to 100, I figure I am not running a fever.

Ugh, more cramping. But it is not severe - not even close. I am trying not to panic....

The OB told me that it is likely that I leaked urine in my sleep. I know that I didn't fully pee myself because my bladder was still full when I got up. But I *have* noticed that many nights, I wake up in absolute pain because my bladder is so full. It's a different experience from what I am used to (in my non-pregnant life, I usually wake up once or twice a night to pee but I am never in pain.) Last night, when my pjs were wet, I was not in pain. Perhaps a little urine leaked out after all.

Fuck. I know that I am going to have nightmares tonight. And I don't know how many hours I will have to wait before getting an answer.

To make matters worse, Mr. LIW discovered that someone had tried to break in to our home when he returned from work tonight. Luckily, for a change, he arrived before I did. It's clear that someone broke the door on the second floor of our house. They must be quite athletic because they had to climb up on our porch to get there. Our assumption is that our Aussie Shepherd, Leo, scared them off. He seriously freaked out when the police came to write a report.....a sign that he was spooked by the attempted thieves earlier in the day.

So, while I have been sitting here crying and stressing out, Mr. LIW has been putting a major chain on the broken door. Our plan is to replace the door this weekend.

Has anyone had an experience like I did last night? Even if you just heard about it from someone else.....do you think that it was urine and not amniotic fluid???

I am really scared. And I have tried so very hard to not panic about every little thing (you all know what a struggle that is for me!) but this has pulled the rug out from under me. At least the OB gave me a positive scenario. At least I know it may be something other than amniotic fluid.

But, if you pray/meditate/etc. would you kindly say a few for me and Little Life? God, I hope he/she is ok.....

In the meantime, I am going to continue to try to think positively.....